Wednesday, November 26, 2008

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My head is so messed up right now.... i had to find something to do... so here i am making a list of some totally random things about myself

- I cant sleep with the cupboards open. Just cant (and no its not because i think of being chased by ghosts coming out from there!)

- I still havent given up biting my nails ... never focussed on how ugly my hands look because of this but i insist on keeping my feet pedicured at all times.

- I cant concentrate on my work in office if the internet is not working, when i cant access any mail but the official one even though i dont usually look at these webpages once i open them. But they just have to be there up and running, for me to focus on work!

- Although i am not a cleanliness freak but i absolutely hate clutter... in the house , at my office desk and most importantly in my brain.

- When pain comes , i dont try to use distractions to avoid looking at it. I embrace it...whole heartedly, to be able to say good bye.

16 comments:

mirrorcracked said...

You need to go out and have some good old fashioned fun! :D

Paradox Philic said...

@ Mirrorcracked - Whats good old fashioned fun? (Please dont roll ur eyes... i am brain dead , rem?)

quirky indian said...

Well, perhaps Nikhil meant that you should take a long quiet walk......best thing to clear your thoughts!

Cheers,

Quirky Indian
http://quirkyindian.wordpress.com

burf said...

do you even check out how good their internet infrastructure is when joining a new company?

Paradox Philic said...

@ Quirky Indian - Long quiet walk? ummm... a good idea indeed, the only problem is that in this city you cant find quiet... and if i did find it somewhere far off , i am sure i would be lost trying to figure my way back...

@ Burf - Maybe i should!

Shoe String said...

I have always found you to be an extremely rational yet a sensitive (to others) person.

What happened that shook you so much? Sure you cant share the details.. but say something, cryptically if you wish. Get it off your chest. We, the intelligent readers, will decode it ourselves.

Shoe String said...

Again this is one of the times that i surface to speak up... so i know this is something unusual and big. Really, vomit it out.

Anand said...

aren't you an angel!
To even welcome pain and bid it goodbye, only the blessed know it came to leave.

I Walk Alone!!! said...

Wow!! loved the 5th point... is it true??? ask your messed up head :)

Dumb Eagle said...

lol... it felt like reading my own thoughts! even i cant keep a cupboard open for no reason!!! it kinda irritates me... and i also share the bad habit of nail biting!! :p tho' i dont get pedicures. :D

and u know wat? lately i also become restless if my net is not working, even if i have no use for it!

but i'm not sure if i share the last point too!! it's just not always possible. :)

Paradox Philic said...

@ Shoe String - Dont worry.. i will be alright..soon... hopefully!


@Anand - you give me way too much credit.

@I Walk Alone - its true..thats exactly why the head is messed up :)

@ Dumb Eagle - Well try it sometime... the recovery period will be much shorter i promise.

I Walk Alone!!! said...

So what exactly is your head messed up with... You are not able to embrace it this time... or finding it difficult to say goodbye... have you fallen in love with the pain ;) like I have :))

Paradox Philic said...

@ I Walk Alone - The pain is both the cause and effect of this messed up head ... so while i hate clutter, i am not trying to look away from this mess to distract myself from the pain... i am trying to sort this out, one step at a time , to clean it up and say goodbye to the pain... lets hope i succeed and soon enough!

I Walk Alone!!! said...

You wont believe, but you made perfect sense to me. I know what you are talking about... have been through it... Or should I say i am not out of it yet... its WIP :) ... hope you succeed and yes soon enough, coz the longer it gets the bigger the mess is... Take care girl. God bless ya!!!

Paradox Philic said...

@ I Walk Alone - Glad to know that i still make sense ...or maybe you are just as insane as i am :P

I Walk Alone!!! said...

I think its the second option :)... Liked that :P Keep that going till the time you clear up this mess... It will only make clearing up of the mess a lot more easier...